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#1: Jo's Girls - short and complete Author: dackel, Location: The Big Wide World (aka London) PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 4:39 pm
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Suddenly felt the urge to write something again while I was at work this afternoon with nothing much to do.

Shhhh, don't tell my boss!

Hope you like it. Wink


I sit in bed and stare at the tiny bundles of human being that have been placed in my arms. I can’t believe I’m holding them at last. They’re so small, much smaller than Sybil or David were. But then I suppose they had to be to share the space! The birth itself was easy, I’m told by a doctor who I suppose has seen many births. However, most women don’t have three.

I don’t know whether to be proud to have achieved three babies in one go, or to be afraid. How am I going to look after them? I know I have Anna to help, but I do want to be their mother – no, mamma, I’m a mamma! – properly. I don’t want to hand my babies over to a nanny, so that they love and know her more than they do me. But with three, I suppose I shall have to reconcile myself to sharing them. Especially if I have others. Although after today, I might leave that a while!

No one told me I could have three. I didn’t know it was possible. I was so enormous I was suspecting there might be two in there, but not three! I wanted to ask but it’s NOT DONE, and Madge was so busy and then she was ill and couldn’t come. She hasn’t even seen my little girls yet. And I didn’t like talking to Peter Chester about it, for although he’s my doctor, he is a man. I could have spoken to Jack, but he’s at sea and goodness knows when he will be back.

I bite my lip and fight back the tears as I think that he won’t see them like this, new to world, small, perfect, and staring about themselves with a look of wisdom that is quite comical for such little people. Maybe the ancient philosophers are right, and we did once have all knowledge possible to man and but then lost it again. Even as I watch them, I can see the look disappearing from their eyes, slowly but surely. But I have seen it, and I will remember it. Jack won’t have that chance.

I’m strangely torn between joy and sorrow, and Nurse thinks it’s getting too much for me, but I wave her away. I don’t want to give her back my babies just yet. When I was waiting, those last few days, just waiting, feeling like a beached whale, I thought of Mother, for the first time in ages. Suddenly I wanted her to be there, especially because Madge couldn’t. Suddenly, I missed her not just for who she was, because I can hardly remember her, but for what might have been. For the love she would have given my tiny, perfect little babies, and for the joy we could have shared.

I look at the little mites again and feel my mouth curling upwards at the corners as if of its own volition. They are so lovely, and they are mine! I can’t wait for Jack to see them. I can’t believe I love them so much already even though they’ve only been with me for such a short time. They are my beautiful babes and I won’t be parted from them for anything. Even just giving them to Nurse to take back to bed seems like giving away an arm or leg – I don’t want to let them out of my sight.

With a sigh, I give them back to Nurse, and think of suitably cheeky response. If I don’t, they’ll think I’m really ill, and won’t let me up for weeks and weeks. And I want to start looking after my lovely babies as soon as possible. So I do the sensible thing, and snuggle down to sleep, happy and contended knowing they are being well looked after, but with an aching feeling in my arms that I don’t believe will ever go away when I’m not holding them.
#2:  Author: kimothy, Location: Glasgow PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 4:49 pm
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beautiful thank you!
#3:  Author: Fatima, Location: Sunny Qatar PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 4:51 pm
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Thanks Dackel, that was absolutely gorgeous.
#4:  Author: Alison H, Location: Manchester PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 5:13 pm
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Thanks, that was really sweet. My mum and dad were both born in mid-1945 so their fathers were away and didn't see them as newborns - it must have been really hard for Jo not having Jack there.
#5:  Author: Josie, Location: London PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 5:13 pm
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Fabulous, dackel, thanks.

Want to give Jo a big hug.
#6:  Author: Mrs Redboots, Location: London, UK PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 5:33 pm
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Lovely, thank you, Dackel. Good to see below the surface of Jo's insouciance in Exile.
#7:  Author: Nell, Location: London, England PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 6:25 pm
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Thank you dackel - lovely.
#8:  Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 6:40 pm
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Thanks, Dackel. That was really, really lovely. I have always wanted to read about how Joey felt when her triplets were so tiny.
#9:  Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 6:51 pm
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Awwww, so lovely.

Thank you.
#10:  Author: Lulu, Location: West Midlands, UK PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 7:13 pm
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Oh, how lovely! Thank you.
#11:  Author: Kate, Location: Ireland PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 8:36 pm
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Aww, that's beautiful. Thank you for writing it!
#12:  Author: patmac, Location: Yorkshire England PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 8:47 pm
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That was lovely. We hear of Jo wisecracking about 1, 2 and 3 but it's so poignant that she's thinking of Jack as well and how he is missing them in their first days.

Thank you.
#13:  Author: Alice, Location: London, England PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 9:32 pm
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That was beautiful, thank you Dackel
#14:  Author: Tara, Location: Malvern, Worcestershire PostPosted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 11:26 pm
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A lovely glimpse into Jo's inmost thoughts.

Thank you, Dackel.
#15:  Author: Cath V-P, Location: Newcastle NSW PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 12:23 am
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That was very poignangt dackel. Thank you.
#16:  Author: Pado, Location: Connecticut, USA PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 3:28 am
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::sniff::

lovely

people keep writing likeable jo

bother
#17:  Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:51 am
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*sniffles and blinks hard*

perfectly beautiful - thanks, Dackel
#18:  Author: Mia, Location: London PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:58 am
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Really sweet, thanks Dackel. I loved this. Very Happy
#19:  Author: MaryR, Location: Cheshire PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 8:57 pm
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What a beautifully tender Jo.

Thanks, Dackel.
#20:  Author: Elle, Location: Peterborough PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 9:24 pm
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Awww....
#21:  Author: Vick, Location: Leeds, Yorkshire PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 9:36 pm
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That was lovely, thank you Dackel
#22:  Author: wheelchairprincess, Location: Oxfordshire, UK PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2006 11:50 pm
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Awww lovely! *wants to hug Jo*
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