Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 4:01 pm
I just found another 2 chapters of this saved to the comp I have here. Just as well I didn't try to continue from where I stopped there then. So, repost 2!
Chapter
Rachel was sitting in her room, just looking at her screen saver. Sometimes she was able to use even that to work out how she was feeling as different styles seemed to have different meanings. At that moment she was using the one which told her most about herself – a word bouncing all over the place.
Sometimes she just used the word “bounce” and she knew that was because it reminded her about the phrase “bouncing off the walls”. She had come to the conclusion that when it was bouncing off the walls she was rather stressed out.
Just now however it was set to “idea” and that was because she was “bouncing an idea around”. She was at present, because there were several ideas floating about in her head – the first was that it was now very close to the end of her first term here.
In some ways she couldn’t believe she hadn’t attended the school since she was in primary school, in others she was amazed at the good luck she had had arriving when she did. To such wonderful teachers who were perfectly situated to help her.
Tamara would have told her that this thing had happened to her, and more, that she believed it happened to everyone who tried to follow God’s plan for their life. She would have called it guidance more than luck, God working in the lives of His children to bring all things out for good – even the difficult things, even those things which seemed devastating at first. They all had their good sides, each and every one of them, if you knew where to look.
Rachel didn’t ponder this too long however, so she never ended up going to see Tamara. She had had a strange dream the night before, where she had met up with 2; younger Miss Annersley’s and 3 different Miss Wilsons, and 3 Matey’s! She felt sure that her head was playing tricks on her, though she had met lots of different people as well.
Miss Darleigh had been with her, as had Mrs Entwhistle. The latter had flashed a chummy grin at a girl who had been introduced as Robin Humphries. This girl had been wearing unusual clothing, but though it looked unusual Rachel thought she might like to wear something similar at some point.
She had also met up with another girl who was quite a bit older than her, Tessa. Tessa was a former head girl of the school, or so she had told Rachel – in the dream she hadn’t looked any older than a school girl.
It was this girl Tessa who had set her the challenge. She was to write a story based on a mother’s love. As she thought about it, she remembered the love of her own dear mother. She smiled softly to herself – while she cared deeply about her mother she wouldn’t have said she missed her.
There was too much to focus on right now for her to worry about where her mother was – and if there was the odd occasion when she missed her, there were so many others about her who could more than replace what she was missing – not least Joanne.
She sometimes wondered what her parents thought of her not being in touch more often – yes, of course there was the weekly letter, but for a school which had e-mail facilities and phone capabilities she was rarely in contact. She was quite happy with the level of contact she had with her parents.
They talked about being upset about it of course, she was put down as heartless occasionally, but she knew that deep down inside they understood why, and they made sure that she was aware of their love for her no matter what else happened.
She sighed, this wasn’t what she wanted to capture though. She knew that some people missed such love. Possibly their mother’s had died, or they had grown up with someone who either didn’t know how to show love, or who possibly didn’t think it mattered.
Those people had missed out on so much, and she was hoping that this story could bring comfort to any heart which called out “why didn’t you love me?” or even “why couldn’t you have lived longer so that I could have known you?” That was what she wanted, something to touch those hearts.
So she pondered and thought until she could see a way through. Then, when she had an idea she touched the mouse and drove the screensaver away regretfully. It might not come back for some time, but she would have a chance to enjoy and appreciate it when she didn’t have quite so much to fill her spare time – Joey would want to see this once she was done.
She had been requesting that Rachel spend a little time on new things when she was at school so that they would have some of her work to polish some Saturday mornings. They had spent a long time on some of Jo’s old manuscripts and she was beginning to get them published – “Josephine M. Bettany with Rachella West.”
Rachel didn’t quite understand why her name had been changed by Joey. That lady had just smiled at her and said that it gave her a freedom when she was a little older to strike out one way or another under whatever name she chose. That reasoning seemed rather odd to Rachel, but she didn’t really mind all that much so she didn’t complain. She might have done if she realized what Jo’s plans were for the future though.
She turned her thoughts from this strange phenomenon back on to the work she had at hand. “A mother’s love, by Rachel Westly.” She didn’t quite know what Jo would think of her using her own name, but when she was drawing up something it felt normal to put her own name on it. She was herself after all, not someone else.
“comfort for those who know not that joy”. She wasn’t quite sure if her subtitle was quite right, but it was alright for working with. Then, with the feeling of a young authoress of the past uncapping her inkpot and dipping her pen into it for the first time she settled down to write.
What she didn’t realize at the time was that the young authoress she was thinking of was her own dear Josephine Bettany as she started to write about the adventures of Cecily.
Chapter – “A mother’s love”
“Sarah was sitting on the couch, dreaming about what a mother must be like. She didn’t have one, hers died when she was just a young child, and her father had been terribly upset to loose her. Now he was less heart broken, but he was rarely home.
Sarah had fun with her father when he was home, and the aunt who kept house for them was kind enough. Somehow Sarah knew that she wasn’t a real mother though, and she dreamed about it often enough. Her mother’s arms about her, a hint of perfume as she passed through her parent’s room, those were the things she craved.
She longed for memories of love as she went about her day and came across things which reminded her of her Mum. All those things added up to so much for her, warmed her heart as she thought about them, but then left her cold as she had to admit that they were simply imaginings and had no bearing upon reality.
She sighed, and shook herself. After all, wishing wouldn’t make any difference. She forced herself to pause, and remember those who were worse off. There were the Betuley twins. Their mother was ill all the time, and they had to support her.
The twins never had anything new; they just couldn’t afford it, because their mother was so ill. Then there was Heather Clark. She came to school with bruises on her arms. She was shy about it, and never said anything, but Andy Roberts had said he could hear her mother shouting at her through the walls every night. And he talked about bumps and bangs occasionally as well. That set everyone talking.
Alright, her mother had been a lot kinder than that by all accounts, but she was far better with her aunt and father that she would have been with Heather’s family. And having to deal with all of that gossip on a daily basis must be so hard for the poor girl.
Sarah got up and got on with the next job. Her aunt might have been there to keep house for them, but she was expected to help out a fair bit as well. And when all that was done, she would have to get on with her homework. Then if she was lucky, she would have time for a bath as well. She smiled to herself – she might not have a mother, a real mother, but things were all right for her really.
Rachel left her tale, well aware that this was only the first section. She had a vague idea about how she would continue this on, but she wasn’t sure exactly what way she would take it yet. The next day would be Saturday, and she would take it with her to Jo’s to see what that lady thought about it.
Until she had time to do that, she went to talk with Joanne. She was full of the play, and it took Rachel a lot to understand why the other girls enjoyed it so. After a bit, she asked her about it.
“Joanne, why does the play mean so much to everyone, surely it’s just another thing which causes noise and mayhem in an already noisy school?”
Joanne looked at her for a moment while she thought about how on earth she could answer this. She was glad that she was on her own with Rachel when she asked this, as the others would have had a hard time keeping quiet after being asked something like that. They would have been appalled at the fact that Rachel felt that the main effect of their play had been to cause noise and mayhem.
“I think the thing is that it is not much to do with all that goes on in sorting it out.” She said slowly before continuing “Yes, it takes a lot of doing, and people make mistakes. The whole school does become rather play focussed, but it is in a good cause.”
She paused for a minute, considering how she might continue. It was obvious that Rachel hadn’t followed what she was talking about. Then she had an idea. “Rachel, were you with us when we had the big assembly with the juniors present, and the teachers read through the play?”
Rachel shook her head. “I was with Mrs Jo” she said quietly “She wanted me to go over and check up on something, and when I got back from that I had to go to the common room for a while.”
Joanne realized that she was skirting round the issue rather, and decided that she would let Rachel have her secrets with Jo Maynard if that was what she wanted. For a second time, she was rather pleased that she was on her own with the other girl.
“In that case, why don’t you ask if you could read over the script of the play? Then you could see what all of the madness was about.”
Rachel was about to decline, when Joanne suddenly laughed. “In fact, I have my copy here. I was going to read through it by myself anyway, so we can go over it together.”
Joanne didn’t give Rachel the chance to argue with her, and so she found herself sitting at the table with Joanne, reading through the play. Some of the scenes seemed vaguely familiar, others were more so, and some of them…
“Why, that’s my writing” she exclaimed, jumping up from her chair and knocking the thing over. Joanne looked at her in surprise – surely she couldn’t think that the play, which was written by Joey, had some of her writing in it.
Meanwhile, Rachel had picked up the manuscript and turned to the front page. There she soon found the authors name, and a quick inscription “Written by Josephine M. Bettany with Rachella west.”
She looked at it, stunned. Just why had Mrs Jo included her work in the play stuff without telling her. And there was that name again. She knew it meant her, but it didn’t feel like that. She would have to leave Joanne to it. She couldn’t read through the play now, not until she had asked Mrs Jo about it.
Joanne looked at her quietly. The other girl was rather white, and she was shaking. All at once Joanne was rather concerned about her. Here was something she couldn’t deal with on her own. It could be that Rachel was tired or something, but it could have been something altogether different, and if Rachel was ill, she wasn’t going to be told about letting infection loose in the school. Not with Matey around, that was for sure!
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