That is so sad - poor woman, I hope they manage to help her.
Thanks Ariel
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| Author: | ChubbyMonkey [ 02 Aug 2009, 18:51 ] |
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One day I was so happy that I didn’t think life could be any better, I thought I’d been blessed in every way. The next I was stuck in this white room, full of people who keep looking at me sympathetically and talking to me as if I’m a child. I don’t want to be a child; I want to be a mother. I am a mother, only I’m not because I failed. I failed so badly and now I’m being punished, but I never meant to fail, I never meant to do anything wrong. I said thankyou everyday for the happiness I’d been given, but then it was snatched away from me, and now the only person who comes is Bette. Dear Bette, she’s looked after me so well, ever since she had to scold me for not pairing up my socks before I put them away. She’s always been there, but she doesn’t understand what happened, she thought that I’d gone mad. It was that doctor, the big one who comes and sees me every morning, he’s convinced her that I’m mad so he can take my baby away again. I’ve tried to tell her, because nobody here will listen, but she doesn’t believe me, she keeps saying that my baby isn’t mine. But I know, I know that they’ve taken my little Cecilie. I know that I can’t have her back. Hilliard would have believed me, he would have helped me to get our little girl back. He should have been here, he should have been looking after us, but instead he left and he expected me to look after Cecilie and I failed. I failed him even more than I failed her, he trusted me to look after her and I couldn’t. Now the doctor has taken her away, and he says that she is his, and nobody will believe me. I want to fight him, I want to win my Cecilie back, but I can’t; they keep me here, all of the time, and when I ask for her they inject me with something that makes me go sleepy. All I want is to protect her like he trusted me to. When Hilliard was here we loved each other so much. Our wedding day was the happiest I’ve ever known, and I remember standing next to him at the alter, and feeling his hand brush mine, and wondering what I’d done to deserve such happiness. I was never a good child, my parents always said that I was bad, evil. Only Bette loved me, even when she did scold, everyone else thought my brother was special. Not Hilliard, though, he loved me, and he made me so happy. On that day, so long ago now, that I lay little Cecilie in his arms he looked different to any man I’ve seen before. He loved her in a way that he couldn’t love me, or anyone else, she was his special little girl from the very beginning. All the time he would spoil her, and even now I will sometimes hear the echo of her laughter through the corridors as he chased her. Then he would catch her, and hug her, and I would scold them for being silly. If I’d known for how short a time I would have them I would never have scolded. Sometimes I wonder if that is why Hilliard was taken from me, as punishment for daring to not always be happy with what I had. We wanted a son, a little brother for Cecilie, but our prayers were never answered. Hilliard was taken, called to a better place, and then I was ill; so ill! Bette cared for me, night and day, and looked after Cecilie too, and it was only when she said that Cecilie was ill as well that I started to get better. But by then it was too late, and because I hadn’t looked after her properly she was taken away. All of the doctors said that she’d died, and they took her, but I know why they said that now; they lied, so that the big doctor could have her, and even though I’ve begged him to give my Cecilie back, and explained what she means to me, he won’t let me have her. I promise God every night that if he would give my Cecilie back to me I would look after her this time, I would protect her as a mother should. I know that I let her down, I know that I wasn’t there when she needed me most, but I’ll never give up on her again. I’ll force the evil doctor to give her back to me, and then we can live happily together and I will spend every day apologising to her for what I’ve done. Sometimes I even pray that He might call her to join Him, so that she could see Hilliard again, and they could be together. She loved him so much more than she did me, when he was taken from us she cried herself to sleep for nights on end, and I couldn’t bear to hear it, to hear her tears. Then one day I found her. When I saw her for the first time, I was so happy, and I petted her for ages, but she was with some older girls who she called her sisters. Of course I don’t want to take her away from her family and make her unhappy, but she is Hilliard’s little girl, and I need to look after her for him. I promised him that I would protect her. When I told Bette that I’d found her, she looked at me oddly, and she didn’t say anything, but I knew that she was as happy as I was. She used to dote on Cecilie so much, if we could have her back we would bring her up together, and she would never know anything but love. Bette said that if she was happy with her other family we should leave her there, but she was Hilliard’s little girl, and so I had to save her. I wept when I got her back to the house, and I introduced her to Bette, and I explained that although Hilliard was still gone we had her back now, and we were going to be a family, just the three of us. Everything came back to me so easily, even after all of this time; I cuddled her, and kissed her, and told her how pretty she was, even prettier than before. She wasn't so pale, anymore, and she moved so gracefully, she'd been so still before. I wanted to scold her for scaring me, but she looked so innocent, and sweet, so different to when I saw her little body just lying there, that I didn't have the heart. Naturally she cried for her other family, but I told her that it was all going to be right now, because she was back with me, and Bette and I would look after her again, and I’d do it properly. When I put her to bed, and I watched her sleeping, I spoke to Hilliard, and I said that I’d got his little Cecilie back. Then I held her hand, and kissed her little pink cheek, and I told her how sorry I was that I’d let her get taken from me, and that I wouldn’t do it again. We were going to run away, Bette and Cecilie and I, I don’t know where, back to Germany maybe. Just as long as I could get her away from the evil doctor who’d kidnapped her then we could be happy again, and maybe one day she might even forgive me for letting her down before, and breaking my promises. But two girls came with a big dog, who scared Cecilie and woke her up, and a third girl took her away again. They kept saying that she was their sister, even though she wasn’t, and I tried to be nice and make them tea so I could explain that she was my little girl, all that I had left of Hilliard, and that I had nobody left but her and Bette. If they only understood how much she meant to me, and that I had to show her I did love her and I could be a good mother, I’m sure they would have let me keep her. Bette had gone out, I don’t know why, so I had to try and do it by myself, only they made me so angry. Then all of these men came. I don’t really remember much after that, except that they all held me down, so that they could take Cecilie away from me again, and the evil doctor was there, and then I fell asleep. My last thought was of Hilliard, and how I had let him down again, and how he would hate me now just like everybody else did because I hadn’t been able to protect his Cecilie. When I woke up, I was all alone again. |
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| Author: | Lesley [ 02 Aug 2009, 20:43 ] |
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That is so sad - poor woman, I hope they manage to help her. Thanks Ariel |
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| Author: | PaulineS [ 02 Aug 2009, 21:02 ] |
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Thanks, a different perspective on the sorry tale of Cecil's kidnapping. |
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| Author: | shazwales [ 02 Aug 2009, 22:13 ] |
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Thanks Ariel, that was really touching. |
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| Author: | Abi [ 02 Aug 2009, 22:38 ] |
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That really is sad; the poor woman. I hope they were able to help her. |
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| Author: | Alison H [ 03 Aug 2009, 00:45 ] |
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The poor woman .
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| Author: | Fiona Mc [ 03 Aug 2009, 02:53 ] |
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That poor women. That's so heartbreaking for her |
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| Author: | KJX [ 04 Aug 2009, 11:00 ] |
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D'you know - that made me well up. A sad, but beautiful take on the incident. 
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| Author: | Phil [ 12 Sep 2009, 19:18 ] |
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 It's always nice to have someone write about the other person's point of view. Thank you. |
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| Author: | Smile :) [ 12 Sep 2009, 19:33 ] |
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Thanks Ariel, it's mice to read this tory from another point of view. |
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| Author: | Tara [ 14 Sep 2009, 00:20 ] |
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That was fascinating. I do hope they were able to help the poor woman. |
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| Author: | KathrynW [ 14 Sep 2009, 18:18 ] |
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Very interesting to see this from the other point of view, thank you. |
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