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Author:  Rosalin [ 02 Jul 2007, 21:43 ]
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My first drabble :shock:

Peggy Bettany! I couldn’t believe it when Miss Annersley told us. Of course, I knew by then that it couldn’t be me, but I hadn’t expected that. Or maybe I should have. After all she is Madame’s niece. I didn’t think the Chalet School would show favouritism like that, but there you go.

I know I could have made a good job of being Head Girl, if I’d only been given a chance. So many of last year’s sixth form left at the end of last term. When we arrived at the start of term and I saw who we had left I thought I’d be in with a chance. I’d really have given it my best shot, done my best for the school. It’s not just myself I’m disappointed for, but Mummy and Daddy too. Mummy especially would have been so proud.

I know the Heads normally have good reasons for everything they do, but I really don’t understand this. With so many of this year’s Sixth having only been Upper Fifth last year, I’d have thought they would have wanted all the experienced prefects they could get. And Peggy is so young. She could easily have been Head Girl next year when she had experience of being a prefect. There are so few of us left that I would have thought they’d have drawn on all the experience they could. And I don’t mean to be conceited but out of all of us, I think I would have been most fitted for the role.

I know I shouldn’t think like this, but I can’t help it. It was such a disappointment, and all I can think is why not me? I feel guilty about feeling this way, but still I go on thinking these things. Which gives me another grievance against Peggy. If it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t be thinking these things. I know I’m not being rational or fair but at the moment I just can’t manage to be either.

When I heard that I was out of it all, I just felt like bursting into tears. I don’t mean to be one of those spineless jellyfish we are all exhorted to be different from, but a shock like that when you’re not expecting it is a difficult thing to take on the chin. I don’t think any of the other girls noticed, which makes me feel worse. Maybe no-one cares. If I was wrong about what the staff think of me, maybe I’m wrong about the other girls too. I thought most of them liked me and I thought I was close to a few of them. But then I thought that the staff had a good opinion of me. I thought I was popular with my peers and had a certain amount of influence over my juniors. So why won’t the Heads give me a chance?

I know I’ve got my future to prepare for, while girls like Peggy don’t need to work so hard, but that was true of some of our best Head Girls. Jacynth Hardy is to be a brilliant ‘cellist, everyone knows that, but it didn’t stop her from being an equal success as Head Girl. Discriminating against a girl on the grounds that she needs to work for her future is against all the values that the Chalet School holds. If it holds the values that I thought it did.

I find myself wishing that Peggy might fail, so that I get a chance after all. If they see that someone just come from the Fifth isn’t up to the task then maybe they’ll look again at me. A most unworthy thought, I know, but one that is preying on my mind at the moment. I can’t go on like this, but it’s hard to see what I can do to change things.

Later

I can’t believe I was so silly. Thinking all those negative things and getting myself tied up in doubts and resentment when there was a solution, which now I can see it, seems so obvious.

Miss Annersley sent for me half an hour ago. “We have your future career to consider Natalie, and so with a view to your concert training we are going to transfer you to Special Sixth on Monday.

Author:  Dawn [ 02 Jul 2007, 21:54 ]
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That is excellent Rosalin - you had me very nicely fooled :D

Author:  Elle [ 02 Jul 2007, 21:55 ]
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And me!

Author:  MaryR [ 02 Jul 2007, 21:55 ]
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Well done, Rosalin. :D

Author:  Chair [ 02 Jul 2007, 22:14 ]
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Thanks, Rosalin. That was a really great drabble. It was interesting to see Natalie's real thoughts.

Author:  Alison H [ 02 Jul 2007, 22:59 ]
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Thanks Rosalin - nice twist!

I always wish we saw more of Natalie in the books :D .

Author:  Fatima [ 02 Jul 2007, 23:09 ]
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Good one! Thanks Rosalin. :D

Author:  Cath V-P [ 03 Jul 2007, 01:28 ]
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Brilliant!

Author:  Lesley [ 03 Jul 2007, 06:43 ]
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Very, very clever!


Thanks Rosalin.

Author:  Liane [ 03 Jul 2007, 07:19 ]
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Great story, thanks Rosalin.

Author:  Elbee [ 03 Jul 2007, 08:52 ]
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Brilliant Rosalin, I was totally fooled! :D

Author:  leahbelle [ 03 Jul 2007, 10:26 ]
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Lovely twist, Rosalin. Thank you :lol: .

Author:  Karoline [ 03 Jul 2007, 10:54 ]
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That was lovely Rosalin, thank you

Author:  Squirrel [ 03 Jul 2007, 11:24 ]
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What a twist! That was very clever Rosalin! Poor Natalie to feel so ignored by the heads - and what a surprise for her when she saw Miss Annersley later on.

I too would have liked to see more of her through the books.

Thanks.

Author:  Jennie [ 03 Jul 2007, 11:52 ]
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Thanks, Rosalin, that was great.

Author:  Carys [ 03 Jul 2007, 12:18 ]
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Ohh I had a sneaky suspicion that it was Natalie...
It would have been nice if she and Gisela had been the first Mother/Daughter head girl, rather than Joey and Saint Len.

Author:  Aquabird [ 03 Jul 2007, 15:57 ]
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That was great, Rosalin! :D

Author:  Mrs Redboots [ 03 Jul 2007, 18:14 ]
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Excellent, and very clever.

You quite had me fooled.....

Author:  Rob [ 03 Jul 2007, 18:50 ]
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It was such a shame that EBD neglected the school's first grandchild.

You had me fooled too ...

Author:  linda [ 03 Jul 2007, 21:37 ]
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Lovely first drabble - with a great twist at the end. I never imagined it woudl be Natalie.

Author:  Vikki [ 04 Jul 2007, 18:11 ]
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That was excellent Rosalin, and I was another one who was totally fooled!!

Author:  Fiona Mc [ 05 Jul 2007, 11:17 ]
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I would have loved to have seen some of the Austrian girls daughters as Prefects. Especially Natalie as Head Girl

Author:  LizB [ 05 Jul 2007, 13:31 ]
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That was excellent - Thanks, Rosalin :D


If her age hadn't been EBD'd so Natalie ended up in the same year group as Peggy, perhaps she'd have had more chance of being Headgirl!

Author:  Helen P [ 11 Jul 2007, 06:36 ]
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I really enjoyed that - and was fooled as well! Thanks Rosalin. :D

Author:  Carolyn P [ 15 Jul 2007, 17:24 ]
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Nice twist.

Author:  La Petite Em [ 17 Jul 2007, 17:08 ]
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Carys wrote:
Ohh I had a sneaky suspicion that it was Natalie...
It would have been nice if she and Gisela had been the first Mother/Daughter head girl, rather than Joey and Saint Len.


Wasn't Josette head girl? :?

Thank-you Rosalin, Natalie never crossed my mind! :D

Author:  Sal [ 21 Jul 2007, 01:10 ]
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That was great thanks, I was fooled too!

Author:  Willow [ 21 Jul 2007, 15:48 ]
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Good twist!

Thank you, Rosalin! Lovely drabble.

Author:  Vick [ 30 Jul 2007, 22:06 ]
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Lovely. Thanks Rosalin

Author:  Loryat [ 25 Sep 2007, 19:50 ]
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Wow, excellent twist!

Author:  Hannah-Lou [ 16 Oct 2007, 18:28 ]
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La Petite Em wrote:
Carys wrote:
Ohh I had a sneaky suspicion that it was Natalie...
It would have been nice if she and Gisela had been the first Mother/Daughter head girl, rather than Joey and Saint Len.


Wasn't Josette head girl? :?


She may have been, can't quite remember, but Madge wasn't head girl, so that wouldn't work.

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