Poor Joey, thanks Chubby Monkey
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| Author: | ChubbyMonkey [ 30 May 2009, 20:37 ] |
| Post subject: | Reflecting |
I had to know, I just had to. And now that I do, I don’t really regret finding out, though I wish that they’d just trusted me from the start. It wasn’t anything out of the ordinary, after all, I went through almost exactly the same scenes with Simone. I know that back then I had the twins, and my new book, and all manner of other things going on, but my children always come first and my triplets needed me then. They needed me, and they needed Jack, and we weren’t there. We failed. I do wish that I could stop crying, I’m being such a foolish old woman. That’s what I am; old. Ten years ago, I would have seen this trouble for myself, and I would have been able to help. But my triplets are so different from me that we’ve grown away. Len has her responsibility, and all of the other children who look up to her so much, and Con has her characters. I’d hoped to keep my Margot, at least, but even she seems to have grown up. It was the clock that did it. I was told that something had happened between the triplets, and then Margot turned up with a ridiculously expensive clock and some tale about Emerence buying it for her. That young woman is determined to give us all grey hairs before she leaves, I’m sure! I told her that she had to get rid of it, but Jack wouldn’t let me. He never did give a satisfactory explanation for that, though I suppose that I understand now. But, oh, I wish he’d told me before. It’s been driving me crazy, not knowing. I tried asking the triplets, but none of them would tell me anything, and the net result was Margot storming off to her room to engage herself in a furious bout of tears. So in the end I just cornered Jack; he was tired from work, poor thing, so I offered to give him a back massage – he says I’m the best masseuse he’s ever known, though who else has been massaging him he wouldn’t tell me. I almost felt bad for surprising him with this so suddenly, especially when he’d had a hard day at work – the old woman they’ve been treating for years died – but it was the only way that I was going to find out. Despite everything, I’m glad that I know now. I’d been imagining all sorts, we all know what Margot has been known to do in the past, and even though blackmail isn’t nice it didn’t culminate in anything worse. Jack’s made me promise not to tell them that I know, and I suppose that is for the best, but I wish I could give them a cuddle. They’re young ladies now, though. I know how I would have felt if Madge had tried to cuddle me at that age! Why didn’t Jack trust me before? They must all think that I’m an awful mother, if I can’t even see when my babies are in such trouble – but I’m not, really, this was just because of expecting the twins and all of the worry about my health. I’m not. Am I? I don’t know, perhaps I am. Perhaps I deserved this. After all, I used to keep things from Jack, about Margot’s temper and things. He must have felt like this. I always told myself that it was for the best he didn’t know. I always said it was because he worked so hard and he wanted us to be the perfect family so badly. But we were never going to be the perfect family and that’s because of him. I never told him because I was scared, he scares me sometimes. He can be so short-tempered, and I know he only does it because he loves us, but just like with Mike I wanted to protect my children. This was all my fault, everything. I created this. I should have been a better mother, I should have let Jack be a better father, I should have looked after my children properly, been able to punish them when they needed it. I should have seen that they were upset, and unhappy, and I should have known what to do because that is what a mother is for. I remember all of those years ago, how unhappy Simone was when she got jealous. I can’t bear to think of Margot suffering in the same way. All that I want now is to cuddle up next to Jack, so that he can tell me everything will be all right in the end. He’s downstairs brooding over his pipe, though, and I’m stuck up here being foolish. Everything is such a mess, and I can’t do anything about it, I couldn’t help them when they most needed it and I can’t help them now. I’m a failure. |
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| Author: | PaulineS [ 30 May 2009, 21:36 ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Reflecting |
Thanks Ariel. I s there more to come? |
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| Author: | Alison H [ 30 May 2009, 21:50 ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Reflecting |
I could understand Jack's decision not to tell her at the time, but maybe she should have been told later ... although by then it'd been sorted out and it probably seemed as if there'd be no point in dragging it all up again. |
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| Author: | Tara [ 01 Jun 2009, 00:12 ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Reflecting |
Oh, poor Jo. Seems to me it's just as much Jack's fault. Hope there's going to be more to follow this up. Thank you, ChubbyMonkey - loved the touches of humour in amongst the moving despair. |
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| Author: | Nightwing [ 01 Jun 2009, 00:19 ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Reflecting |
Poor Jo! I don't really think she's to blame, but it's only natural she'd blame herself after everything that happened. Thanks for writing this, ChubbyMonkey! |
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| Author: | leahbelle [ 05 Jun 2009, 16:23 ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Reflecting |
Thanks, Chubby Monkey. I feel sorry for Jo, feeling its all her fault. |
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| Author: | trig [ 05 Jun 2009, 16:54 ] |
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Thanks for this. Jo's guilt feeling is very believable. A mother's place is in the wrong! |
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| Author: | jonty [ 06 Jun 2009, 15:27 ] |
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trig wrote: A mother's place is in the wrong! Indeed. Poor Jo. Thank you, ChubbyMonkey. |
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| Author: | Smile :) [ 16 Jun 2009, 16:09 ] |
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Poor Joey, thanks Chubby Monkey
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| Author: | Mrs Redboots [ 28 Aug 2009, 15:04 ] |
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Just found this - thanks; very moving. Poor Joey. |
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| Author: | Liz K [ 28 Aug 2009, 16:04 ] |
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Would appreciate seeing more of this; it's interesting to know what WOULD have happened had Joey been told. |
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