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"If only..." - short and complete
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Author:  Finn [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 9:14 am ]
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She had imagined this day a thousand times or more - God forgive her, she had even wished for it. And finally it was here, and it was nothing like she had imagined. She felt no freedom, no release, just...sadness.

She knew she had always been a burden to them; they had made no effort to conceal that fact. She had hated them for it, in her childish way - even now she hated them, but it was tinged with regret, regret that she could never ask them "Why? What did I do wrong?", regret that she could never make amends, regret that they would never, now, say to her, "We were wrong. We are sorry."

She disapproved of self-pity but she knew that she was doing it, and despite her best efforts she could not force the feelings down. She wanted them to be sorry, she wanted them to know what these years had meant to her, how she had suffered; but even after everything, she had still hoped that they might come back for her, that they might be reconciled. And now they never could.

Anger would come later, but today, as the others dragged her away to look at mountains, chattering together as they tugged her along, the hot sunshine brushing her unresponsive skin, she was conscious of just one thought,

"If only I could have felt they loved me!"
Author:  PaulineS [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 9:47 am ]
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Bonnie that is not complete. Please come back and tell us who it is and why they feel like that.
Author:  Finn [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 9:51 am ]
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Ah, sorry Pauline. If you read the last chapter of School At you will find out who it is!
Author:  ChubbyMonkey [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 10:17 am ]
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Ah, is it Juliet then?

Her feelings are so understandable (whoever she is...) Thankyou for a drabble - lovely isn't the word, but I can't think of one at this moment!
Author:  Finn [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 10:34 am ]
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It is Juliet, yes. Just a little idea about what might have been going through her mind when she heard about her parents. Silly stuff, but it's a break from dissertating and kind of makes up for not being able to spend any time on Brothers atm...sigh!
Author:  ChubbyMonkey [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 10:59 am ]
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Well, I like it, so thankyou! And good luck with the dissertating :D
Author:  PaulineS [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 11:02 am ]
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Thanks Bonnie. I was trying to fit it in to a Late book, never thought of the School at.
Now I know who it is the drabble makes painful sense. Your expressive writing comes across again.
Hoping the dissertation is going smoothly, best wishes for it.
Author:  Squirrel [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 12:34 pm ]
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Ouch - Poor Juliet, how hard it must have been for her. Especially given her previous history - it makes it even more poignant.

Thank you for a wonderfully evocative bit of writing, seems like it must have been hard to write.
Author:  Abi [ Thu Aug 12, 2010 7:51 pm ]
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Juliet's story is so sad, even though we only see the happy ending. Thanks for that, Bonnie.
Author:  Cath V-P [ Thu Aug 26, 2010 6:44 am ]
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Poor Juliet, knowing that now there is now no chance that her parents will reach out to her. :(

Thank you Bonnie.
Author:  Elbee [ Sat Aug 28, 2010 9:09 pm ]
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Poor Juliet, it must have been so difficult for her.

Thanks, bonnie.
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