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Sharlie Andrews - Part 7

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#601: Author: Ally, Location: Jack Maynard's Dressing Room!!

Posted: Sat Aug 20, 2005 7:30 pm

Thank you pimbert Very Happy

I think it will be a while yet before Sharlie and colin get married (if they ever do that this Wink

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#602: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Sat Aug 20, 2005 9:57 pm

Thank you Pim and minion

Liz

#603: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Sun Aug 21, 2005 7:53 pm

Only a year till the end of the series? Hopefully Sharlie and Colin can be looking at a date soon then.

Thanks Pim.

#604: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Sun Aug 21, 2005 8:59 pm

From Lyon I made my way back to Liverpool where I would see out July. Harriet’s wedding was to be on 17 August and I was due to go to her at the beginning of August. From there I would go to Tish’s for the rest of August and then spend the last couple of weeks in Liverpool. I arrived back at Elizabeth’s to a note from Colin.

Dear Sharlie.

I’ll pick you up at four on Saturday. I won’t see you before so as to not spoil the surprise. Can’t wait to see you again.

Colin.

I spent the intervening days in a state of curiosity as to what he could have planned. Elizabeth didn’t give me much chance to dwell on the subject, however, and managed to occupy my days. Peter had settled down and was less inclined towards crying fits and being fratchety. Rebecca was also only too glad to fill my days by using me as a babysitter. There were times when I struggled to reconcile eight year old Sarah with the newborn baby I had held at nineteen. One thing remained though, the natural urge I had felt to protect her – and the same went for Jack, Claire and Peter.

I awoke early on the Saturday morning, anxious and nervy, peering out of the window every few minutes much to Elizabeth and James’ amusement and insistence that even Colin wouldn’t arrive five hours early. True to his word he arrived on the dot of four and packed me into the car without a word as to where we were going. In the end I gave up asking and we turned our conversation to the months which had elapsed since the Easter holidays. We soon left the city behind and were heading in a northern direction which left me confused.

Do you know where you are yet, he asked as a couple of hours after leaving Liverpool we arrived in Southport.
Southport, I replied promptly. I haven’t been here since I was a kid in…
1938, he supplemented. The summer you were eight.
Yes. How did you know?
You told me. Well you told me that the only holiday you’d had as a kid was in Southport; I dragged the specifics out of Becca about a month ago when she was waxing lyrical on the subject one day.
I laughed. Wonder if we’ll see the sea.
I can’t promise that one.

He parked the car and we took a stroll through the town before our dinner reservation at half past seven. It had been nearly twenty years since I’d last been here but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what had changed and what hadn’t.

We went out for dinner once on holiday – Uncle Charlie’s treat, he was always spoiling us rotten – but I’m blowed if I can remember what it was called.
Peter’s Pantry.
Yes, that was it. How…
Becca, of course, it’s just as well your sister has a better memory than you.
I pulled a face. I wonder if it’s still open.
It is. I looked it up and that’s where we’re going.
I stopped dead in my tracks. Oh Colin, I said softly.
Is that okay? You said to surprise you.
I slipped my hand into his. I couldn’t have asked for a nicer surprise.
He kissed the top of my head. I have to admit I was getting a bit desperate for inspiration. It’s all thanks to Becca really.
You didn’t have to listen to her waxing lyrical though. You are allowed to tell her to shut up when she gets boring. In fact, I added ruefully. She’d probably take it better from you than me.
Ahh, sisterly love.
Love me, love my sisters, I joked.
Oh I do, he replied with a grin. I love all the Andrews sisters, but I love Sharlie the most.
I should think so. I paused. It seems so odd coming back here after all this time – it was a whole lifetime ago 1938.
Has much changed?
Yes, and no. I can’t quite put my finger on it – but the war changed so much that we can’t always see.
The war changed everything.
For better and for worse, I commented.
That’s marriage.
That’s everything, two sides.
Are we better or worse?
Definitely better.
I was hoping you’d say that, he said with a smile.
We wouldn’t be here now if it was worse. I can’t believe I was such an idiot all that time.
You had a good enough reason.
I shrugged. I guess I still don’t quite believe that things this good happen to people like me.
Better start believing then because I’m not going anywhere.
You’d better not.
One day Sharlie, you’ll realise just how special you are.
I laughed. And until then you’ll just have to keep on reminding me.
Like this, he asked as he kissed me.
I nodded. Just like that.

After dinner we walked hand in hand along the front watching the beginning of the dark fall before driving back to Liverpool.

Can I see you tomorrow, he asked as we pulled up outside Elizabeth’s house.
Well you can, but I believe the question is may you, I said with mock severity.
Oh you, he sighed. Very well – may I see you tomorrow?
I leant over and kissed him. You may indeed. I’m looking after Peter for the afternoon – Eliz and James are going to his sister’s but I’m expecting them back for dinner. Why don’t you join us – Becca said your father’s going to Aunt Jane.
I’d like that.
I’ll see you about six thirty then?

He nodded in agreement and we kissed a final time before I disappeared indoors feeling as though I was walking on air.

#605: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Sun Aug 21, 2005 9:11 pm

That sounds like a lovely evening. Thanks, Pimanda.

#606: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Sun Aug 21, 2005 9:51 pm

Love the can/may bit! Hilda infecting everyone. Laughing

Thanks Pim, a lovely post - so nice to see Sharlie and Colin back together.

#607: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 7:47 am

How lovely

Thanks Pim & Piminion

Liz

#608: Author: Nell, Location: London, England

Posted: Mon Aug 22, 2005 10:11 am

Thank you Pim and Piminion! Lovely.

#609: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Tue Aug 23, 2005 9:40 pm

I was a little reluctant to leave Liverpool and Colin for London but I had promised Harriet my almost undivided attention for the fortnight up to the wedding. I also had some work to do with Professor Stewart. We had identified early 1959 as a publishing date for the book – there were still frustrating gaps in our research, questions we had been unable to find willing answers to. I arrived at Harriet’s to find that she had almost everything under control, ably assisted by Dina, Kit and Lou. The four had been firm friends since their first day as probationers eight years previously and had lived together since they qualified. There were a few jokes about Harriet abandoning the spinster ship but Dina was due to get married the following year and I doubted that Kit would be far behind. Only Lou remained without a steady young man in the background, the one who continued to put the job first. She merely shrugged when I asked her and said that if it happened then it happened and if it didn’t then it wouldn’t bother her. Kit was to be Harriet’s maid of honour, the two had been inseparable since they first met. Dina and Lou would be bridesmaids along with Sarah and Martin’s ten year old cousin, Eleanor. I was kept busy finishing dresses and doing final fittings with a mouthful of pins.

Philip gave Harriet away just as he had done Elizabeth two and a half years previously. I sat with Rebecca, Elizabeth, James and the children with half an eye on Jack who was showing inclinations towards boredom and fidgeting. Even with my attentions on Jack I couldn’t ignore the solemn and honest exchange of vows between Harriet and Martin. I had always hoped to see Harriet so happy; I knew that she would never be completely at peace over Bridget’s death and that nothing we could say or do would make any difference, but I knew that Martin would make her happy.

Only you to go, Sharlie girl, then I’ll have given away the full set of Andrews sisters, Philip remarked jokingly to me that afternoon at the reception. Don’t make me wait too long.
I smiled. I’ll do my best but don’t rush it.
Where is your better half anyway?
Playing with his cameras last time I saw him. I’m quite resigned to losing him at any function where he might be in an official capacity.
You might want to find him though, he whispered conspiratorially.
Why?
See that chap over there. I followed Philip’s gaze until my eyes rested on a gawkish young man I recognised as one of Martin’s cousins. I nodded. He’s been making eyes at you for the last half hour or so.
I spluttered. Oh no.
Philip grinned. Let him down gently kiddo. Oh, my wife is giving me that look that says I’m in trouble; I’d best go and see what I’ve done wrong now.

I laughed as Philip disappeared into the crowd.

Okay Sharlie?
I turned to see Harriet standing behind me. Fantastic. But you’re meant to be circulating, thanking everyone for coming and so on.
I am doing, she retorted. I’ve circulated to you. I can drop the act for a few moments; it’s darn hard work and my feet are killing me.
I laughed. I told you that’d happen in those shoes.
She sighed. Why are you always right all the time Sharlie?
I’m not though, am I?
Harriet searched out Colin amongst the guests. You were eventually. This could have been you if you’d come to your senses sooner.
I shook my head. I always wanted you and Elizabeth to be settled first.
Crackers, Eliz and I can look after ourselves.
I’m still allowed to worry about you. You might be Mrs Dr Fitzpatrick but you’re still my little sister and nothing’s going to change that.
And even when you’re Mrs Colin Graham you’ll still be my big fusspot sister, she laughed. Will you stop worrying about Eliz and I now and concentrate on your own happiness?
I’ll never stop worrying about you two – big sister’s prerogative.
You’re quite mad. She paused. I understand now what Becca and Eliz meant about wanting mam and da at their weddings. I didn’t think it’d bother me, I hardly knew them after all.
It doesn’t make any difference.
I wonder what Bridgie would make of it all.
She’d love it.
I promised myself I wouldn’t feel guilty about it today, she said, her voice shaking. I handed her my hanky. I’m sorry Sharlie. You won’t tell the others, will you? I shook my head. Thank you. You’re the only one who really understands. I should get circulating again.

I watched her head off and begin talking to some of Martin’s family before feeling a hand on my shoulder. I turned to see Colin grinning at me.

I’ve been looking for you for ages, he said in a tone of mock hurt.
I haven’t moved for the last hour.
I’ve found you now, he said and kissed me gently. Having a good day?
I nodded as he wrapped his arms around me. It just got better.

#610: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Tue Aug 23, 2005 9:46 pm

It's lovely to see Harriet get married and a tender moment between Sharlie and Colin.

#611: Author: Squirrel, Location: St-Andrews or Dunfermline

Posted: Tue Aug 23, 2005 9:51 pm

Aww thats lovely. Nice to have such closeness in the family. It was great to see Harriet opening up to Sharlie like that. And then Colin at the end to complete Sharlie's day for her. Ware Martin's cousin though! It was also nice to know that almost all of Harriets close friends are also begining to reach the stage of having someone else in their lives. Thanks all.

#612: Author: patmac, Location: Yorkshire England

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 2:33 am

Lovely, Pim. thank you.

#613: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 7:23 am

*mushy inside*

Thanks Pim and Piminion

Liz

#614: Author: MaryR, Location: Sale Cheshire

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 8:32 am

Please don't let anything spoil this new-found happiness!

Thanks, all.

#615: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 2:02 pm

The following day I had been reserved by Trixie who had complained that I had been neglecting her. I had promised to go for Sunday lunch and spend the afternoon there to put an end to the mock guilt trip. I was used to Trixie springing odd surprises on me, but the fact that she had neglected to tell me of her second pregnancy beat the lot hands down. For a moment I was knocked speechless before she began laughing at me.

Oh your face was a picture, she said when she eventually pulled herself together.
Well you could have at least told me before now! When are you due?
First week of November. I was going to tell you at Easter but you went off and landed yourself in hospital; I didn’t want to hold up your recovery. She laughed. And by that stage I thought I’d let you find out for yourself.
I’m used to you springing mad things on me, but really Trix, this takes the biscuit!
Success then? It takes a lot to render you speechless and it’s so amusing when it happens.
And I thought you were my friend.
She grinned wickedly. Oh, whilst I think about it there’s your invitation to Tash’s wedding on the mantelpiece.
They’ve set a date then?
Trixie nodded. July 19th, next year.
I retrieved the invitation from the mantelpiece and settled back down to look it over. I owe Tash a letter. She wrote at the start of last term and I still haven’t got around to replying. I’ll have to now though.
You will come, won’t you?
Of course.
It’ll be a nice day without the children. I giggled suddenly. What?
You with children.
She grinned. I know. I’m sure I’m not responsible enough to have Christopher, let alone this one as well.
What do you want this time?
It’d be nice to have a girl, one of each then. Christopher was singularly unimpressed when we told him.
Jack told Becca he’d rather have a dog when she told him about Claire. I think girls react to new babies better than boys – Sarah did anyway.
How did the wedding go yesterday?
Lovely. I’m glad Harriet’s settled down now.
It could have been you.
I laughed. I’ve heard that so often since Harriet got engaged. It’ll be me one day, just not yet. Let me and Colin get to know each other again first.
Just make sure you give me ample time to buy a new hat – and don’t you two go sneaking off and having a quiet wedding with only the two of you.
Do you think I’d be allowed to get away with that? Besides we haven’t got engaged again yet! And nor are we likely to just yet – I’ve only just been promoted after all.

I spent an enjoyable afternoon at Trixie’s catching up with her, Paul and Christopher, who seemed to grow a ridiculous amount in between my visits. I spent a part of the afternoon helping him chase monsters and shutting them in cupboards.

Christopher adores you, Trixie commented later when he had gone off with Paul. You’ve always been good with children.
It helps in my job.
I’ll say. Look, Sharlie, I know you have an awkward relationship with religion but Paul and I would still like you to be godmother to number two.
Me?
Yes, you, you idiot. Paul’s brother Jerry will be godfather. You will say yes, won’t you?
You know I will.
Good. I wanted you for Christopher but we thought Paul’s sister might make a fuss if we didn’t ask her.
I laughed. Aren’t families wonderful?
She grinned. Friends are usually better though.

#616: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 2:20 pm

I'm glad Trixie has asked Sharlie to be Godmother to the new baby. Will there be a church big enough to hold all of Colin and Sharlie's friends and family when they get married - there seem to be so many and they keep on getting bigger in number!

#617: Author: Katie, Location: A Yorkshire lass in London

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 2:26 pm

pim wrote:

I spent a part of the afternoon helping him chase monsters and shutting them in cupboards.

Hmm, I wonder where you got this idea from...? Laughing

Thanks Pim and whichever minion is on duty at the mo. Very Happy

#618: Author: Nell, Location: London, England

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 3:39 pm

Love the fact Trixie hadn't told Sharlie!

Thank you PIm and Piminion!

#619: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 5:53 pm

How lovely

Thanks Pim & Piminion

Liz

#620: Author: Ally, Location: Jack Maynard's Dressing Room!!

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 6:07 pm

Danke Pimgemmy Very Happy

Trixie is still as fine as ever!

#621: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 6:43 pm

Awww, such loverly posts.

Thanks Pim.

#622: Author: Vikki, Location: Sitting on an iceberg, freezing to death!!!

Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2005 9:35 pm

Very shiny!!!

Thank you Pim and minion!

#623: Author: Josie, Location: London

Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2005 10:24 am

Lovely, thanks Pim.

#624: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 2:07 pm

Colin and I left for Bristol the following day. Tish had talked him into spending a couple of days with us since the magazine he occasionally worked for had given him an assignment in Somerset. Tish had said it would be rude of him not to come and see us as well, besides Samantha would love to see him again. He hadn’t had the heart to disappoint Samantha, but we had all decided to keep it a secret from her.

Auntie Sharlie! Auntie Sharlie! Where’s all your hair gone, Samantha demanded as she flung her arms around my waist. I was about to reply and then her attentions were distracted. Uncle Colin, she shrieked, flinging herself at him with such force that he had to drop our cases in the middle of the platform.
Carrying your own bags then, laughed Tish from behind me as Colin swung Samantha up into his arms.
Looks like it, I grinned as she hugged me.
I nearly didn’t recognise you with the new hair do. But I do like it, it suits you much better that way. Are you keeping it like that?
Until I get bored of it.
I had to laugh at Rebecca’s letter – falling over shoelaces is the sort of thing that I do.
Where are Lucy and Nic?
Making lunch back at the house. Lawrie’s here as well, he said he pitied Colin having to put up with us lot so he’s here for as long as Colin is. Have they met?
Not as far as I recall. I may be wrong though, I added as he and Samantha joined us. I take it Tish and I are carrying the cases then?
Best get a trolley, he replied. There’s too much for you to carry and I don’t want you dropping my cameras.
Tish had already gone for a trolley by the time I had turned around. Am I not good enough now Uncle Colin’s here, I asked Samantha.
She grinned at me. But Auntie Sharlie I saw you at Christmas and I haven’t seen Uncle Colin in ever such an awfully long time. Colin grinned smugly at me. Look Auntie Sharlie, one of my teeth came out. She opened her mouth to show me the gap in her bottom teeth. And the tooth fairy came and took it away.

By the time we got back to Tish’s I had heard all of Samantha’s news even though I’d had to sit in the front of the car because she wanted to sit with Uncle Colin. Lucy, Nicole and Lawrie were waiting for us when we arrived and for a few moments we reverted to our twelve year old selves in a rapturous greeting, much to the amusement of Lawrie and Colin. I was pleased that Colin hit it off with Lawrie and the two of them had a habit of vanishing to avoid our chatter and the mere idea that we might ask them to do something. We waved the two of them off a couple of days later – Lawrie back to Cambridge and Colin to Somerset.

I’m glad you finally came to your senses, Lucy said to me a few days later. We were sunning ourselves in the garden watching Tish teach Samantha gymnastics whilst we waited for Nicole to call us in for lunch.
What about, I asked.
Colin, of course.
Oh that. I smiled.
I was beginning to think I’d have to go and dance on my brother’s grave – if he had one – for being such an idiot.
Lucy, please.
No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have brought it up.
How are things with your parents?
Oh, so so. They’re getting better but it’ll still take some time. I don’t think they’ll ever even come close to understanding; I don’t think Catherine or I will either but… she shrugged. We all have our own ways of dealing with things and it’s just unfortunate that ours aren’t compatible. On the other hand, Sharlie, falling over your shoelace – really! I grinned. By the way, have you heard from Kathie?
I shook my head. At least not since I went to Harriet for the wedding. Why?
No reason, I just wondered. She owes me a letter that’s all. I have learnt to not expect too much from her in the summer holidays to be honest but I wrote to her before the end of term.
She was going to France with Nancy at the end of term for a week or so and I think she was heading back to the Platz in early September to stay with Biddy.
Nancy’s good for her. She’s a very sobering influence on Kathie and goodness only knows she needs one!
Nancy’s so laid back she may as well be horizontal, but I do think they have their fair share of ups and downs behind the scenes.
I don’t doubt it – especially as Kathie’s occasionally given to going off like a small firework! Bit they were definitely made for each other – like you and Colin.
What about you?
She shrugged. Not got the time to worry about that, ask me again in twelve months time.
The end’s in sight then?
More or less, and it’ll be such a relief to get it over and done with.
Dr Burrows, I grinned.
She chuckled. Don’t pre-empt me.
You’ll be fine.

#625: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 3:04 pm

Lovely, wonderful reaction from Samantha. Hope Lucy is OK - lots of work and possibly some unresolved issues re her brother?

Thanks Pim.

#626: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 3:36 pm

I hope Lucy does get married one day. Thanks, Pim.

#627: Author: MaryR, Location: Sale Cheshire

Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 8:28 pm

Lovely update, Pim, and I liked the little insight into Kathie.

Thank you.

#628: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 11:19 pm

Thanks Pim

Liz

#629: Author: francesn, Location: away with the faeries

Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 1:21 am

awww thank you Pim - lots of luffly Sharlie-and-Colin posts to catch up on.

#630: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Thu Sep 01, 2005 9:20 pm

I was somewhat unsure about the start of the new school year as I headed to London to meet Peggy. I had returned from Tish’s to a letter from Miss Annersley explaining that she would be away this term on an educational inspection tour and that, in her absence, Nancy would be acting head. She also apologised that she wouldn’t be there to support me in my first term as Head of the Junior School but trusted that I would help and support Nancy. Nancy’s own letter had taken a shocked tone that she had been offered the position but there was something else that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Kathie’s letter had arrived a few days later, a myriad of thoughts, half begun statements and a multitude of crossings out. In the end I had laid it aside, puzzled. It was outwardly supportive of Nancy, but as with her letter there was something between the lines that I couldn’t quite read and I had to wonder just how much this coming term would affect their relationship.

It goes without saying that we’ll back Nancy up, Peggy said as the train headed out of London. The Head knows we will, although I must admit…
What?
I don’t know. I had the oddest letter from Kathie about it.
I frowned. Me too.
Do you think she’s jealous of Nancy?
I don’t think jealous… I mean it’s come as a shock to all of us but I can’t begin to imagine what Nancy must have felt. It will affect their relationship though, there’s no question about that.
Of course – they’ll have even less time together now, especially if Nancy has to go and have the Head’s room in the annexe. It’ll put a stop to them both sneaking around in the small hours after lights out.
And Kathie always says she hates waking up alone, I put in, thinking aloud.
Peggy frowned. So long as we don’t have to take sides…
I’d hope it won’t come to that. I’m sure Nancy will be great as head but Kathie’s bound to feel a little left behind.
I think it’s going to be an interesting term.
I think it is.
You’ve got a new junior mistress, haven’t you? I wonder what she’ll be like.
Mm, me too. I trust the Head’s judgement though. One thing I don’t fancy about this post though, Peg, is having to boss Joan Bertram.
Peggy giggled. Sharlie Andrews you have never bossed anyone in your entire life! Anyway Joan has more to do with the Junior Middles these days.
I know and she was really supportive last term. But I can’t help worrying. Am I being stupid?
I hope so especially as I thought you two had aired all your grievances and put that first term behind you.
Oh we have but I guess I’m still a little sensitive still about it. I know Joan was just put out because she’d wanted her friend to get my post.
She can be an absolute ninny at times. Do you know who’s meeting the new mistress, though? I would have thought it would be you.
Deb Smith and Linda Stone were going to do it. I had a letter from Deb saying so.
Hadn’t those two been to the Isle of Wight or something?
Isle of Man.
Same difference.
I laughed. Tell that to Ros Moore, she’ll skin you alive.
Peggy shrugged. Geog never was my strong point. She stretched her arms. I do hate being cooped up on this journey for so long. Did Kathie say she’d pick us up in Berne?
I nodded. I think that was the only bit of her letter that made any sense.
Poor old Kathie, she must wonder where her head’s at.
How were your holidays anyway?
Peggy shrugged again. Same old, same old, I suppose. I do wish Mary would give it up on the whole introducing me to eligible bachelors front though.
I raised an eyebrow. Why so?
She blushed. No particular reason, it just gets a bit boring after a while, that’s all.
Does that mean she’s managed to introduce you to an eligible bachelor who interests you? I smirked a little.
Sharlie!
What?
I… I…
I grinned. You’ll have to tell now.
No point, I very much doubt he’ll be interested.
Rot, you don’t know that.
What’s the point anyway? I’m beyond the interested in marrying stage – I shall continue a spinster. I’m quite resigned to my fate.
Fooey, you don’t have to be.
It’s easier to be.
Don’t be such a goose, Peg.
He won’t even remember who I am in a few weeks, Sharlie so it doesn’t matter anyway. I’m quite happy as I am.
But don’t you ever feel the need to have somebody?
Not really, I guess I’m just not that kind of person. I’ll stay married to the job, it can’t hurt. Besides I’m going to be brevet aunt to the brood of kids you’re going to have.
It will not be a brood or a troop or a horde or anything like that, I said emphatically. I plan to have a civilised number of children – if ever I do.
I wonder what this term holds in store for us, commented Peggy changing the subject suddenly.
No point trying to guess is there, I replied with a grin.

#631: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Thu Sep 01, 2005 11:13 pm

Thanks, Pim. I'm trying to remember who the new mistress will be. I hope Peggy has found her SLOC and everything works out for them.

#632: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 12:08 am

Thanks Pim & Piminion

Wonder how they'll all be affected by Nancy's new role.

Liz

#633: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 4:24 am

Think this term will be interesting - thanks Pem, good to see more of this. Laughing

#634: Author: Nell, Location: London, England

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 9:35 am

THank you Pim and Minion! Interesting - Looks like being an eventful term. Wondering about Peggy and the mystery man!

#635: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 8:32 pm

Huzzah for this is actually the real Pim posting as herself and not a Piminion! I am stealthing chez Ally at the mo hence being able to blatantly nick her internet as she's on the phone to Gems...

The school felt strange in the absence of Miss Annersley. I couldn’t deny that she had made a wise choice in choosing Nancy to stand in for her, even though it felt strange having her in charge. For my part, I had my work cut out with running the Junior school and, to some extent, found myself neglecting everyone a little as I adjusted to the changes in my role. The new junior mistress, one Emily Miller, seemed to settle in quickly and struck up a friendship with Linda Stone and Deb Smith giving me one less thing to worry about. Term started well with Nancy settling into her new role and seeming like a seasoned pro after a couple of weeks. I had never really thought about Nancy in such a position but this was a wake up call that none of us were getting any younger and that things would change with the passing of time. I knew only too well how quickly things could change but from time to time I woke up to that fact a little too quickly.

Kathie and I found ourselves free together the third weekend of term and decided to head to Lausanne. So, it seemed, did an awful lot of other people and finding somewhere to stay proved to be a veritable nightmare. In the end we took the first room offered to us, ignoring the funny look we got from the proprietor when we said that having to share a bed was not a problem. By that stage we had both gone beyond caring and all we wanted to do was go to sleep somewhere vaguely comfortable. I went to investigate the bathroom first and was on the verge of falling asleep when Kathie climbed into bed beside me with her back to me. I frowned, realising that something was wrong.

Kathie, I whispered, laying my hand on her shoulder. What’s the matter? She shook her head and I lay thinking for a moment. Kathie?
Sharlie?
Yes?
I need a hug, she whispered back.

I rolled on to my side and wrapped my arm around her. I felt her shaking in my arms as she began to sob quietly. I said nothing as she rolled over and cried against my shoulder.

What’s the matter, I asked again as she suddenly gulped and stopped crying.
I don’t… oh, everything. I just… I miss Nancy so much.
What do you mean?
We don’t get any time together anymore. I don’t begrudge her being acting head this term – it’s wonderful and I’m so proud of her but… it’s not the same anymore. I always knew something like this would happen sooner or later, I just hoped it would be later. I know I’m being silly. She paused. One of my school friends got married over the summer and it got me thinking.
How so? I frowned. I thought you were happy.
I am. I know who I am and what I am; but there are times when I can’t help but wonder how much easier it would be to go down the conventional route.
Probably not at all.
I know that, only sometimes… When did you last think about Alice?
I shrugged. Probably when I last saw Trix.
Do you think… when you and Colin have children that they’ll replace her?
I shook my head. Absolutely not.
Does Colin know?
No.
Will you tell him?
Maybe. I don’t want to keep secrets from him but I think Alice is part of me and maybe it should stay that way.
It’s so much easier for you. Sometimes, I think…
You wouldn’t consider giving up Nancy to be conventional, or rather, pretend to be, would you, I asked in shock.
No, no I wouldn’t. I just wonder how much easier it would be… no, wait. I know how much easier it is to be straight – or to pretend to be. I suppose I just envy how much easier you have it.
I laughed. Hardly easier – especially as the ‘spinster sister’ as Philip insists on calling me.
Maybe it’s time for you and Colin to rectify that?
Not just yet, we will but we, I mean I, need time.
Hurrah for time, she muttered, leaning against my shoulder and yawning. Gosh I’m sleepy now.
Huh, I retorted.
I do feel better though – well a little bit. I guess I need a gentle reminder every now and again that Nancy’s that bit older than me and deserves to move up the ladder ahead of me. Of course you’ll have it easier since you’ll be able to give it all up when you get married and have dozens of children.
I’m not giving it all up, I retorted, I may have to give up teaching but it’ll take more than being a wife to make me give up my academic work!

#636: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 9:41 pm

Can just imagine them being so tired they just didn't care what type of room they got!

Lovely Pim - you've capture Kathie's anxieties so well.

And nice to see you again!

#637: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 10:13 pm

Thanks, Pim. It's great to have you in person! I also hope you enjoy your stay at Ally's. I'm glad Sharlie was there for Kathie to talk to.

#638: Author: Kathy_S, Location: midwestern US

Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 4:19 am

Glad to hear Sharlie plans to continue her academics.

Poor Kathie, though. Hmm, bet Sharlie starts plotting....

Thanks, Pim.

#639: Author: MaryR, Location: Sale Cheshire

Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 8:39 am

Hang on, though, isn't this the term that Kathie gets appendicitis? Won't that bring them closer together again - in spirit if not physically. Crying or Very sad

Thanks, Pim. Poor Kathie.

#640: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 11:02 pm

Still clearly stealing Ally's internet, hurrah! *Ally interjects here* ... bad pimmy *pim returns* Harrumph, do *not* agree with that assessment! Ally may need to be poked. *Ally interjects AGAIN* meanie, pimmy may haff to sleeop outside..... *pim returns* Ahh well, it would be just like rerun of the norty tent. Now, back on to more pressing concerns. *Ally again* oh why this squabbling is fun... *Pim back* Ally, and I mean this in he nicest possible way, SHUT UP!!!!

1st post

Term was unusually quite and uneventful over the following couple of weeks and it was down to Kathie to provide its major sensation, possibly one we could have all done without. Then again none of us could have ever predicted the sudden flare up of appendicitis which caught her completely unaware. We were only eased of our concerns by Nancy’s calm exterior in the immediate aftermath. A few of us saw past it but she wouldn’t have appreciated us passing comment on it; not that it prevented Peggy and I discussing it quietly amongst ourselves. Nancy was against getting a sub in so the initial discussion had revolved around how we could work the timetable to deal with Kathie’s absence.

It had already started out as one of those days that you long to get over and done with as quickly as possible. The post had brought an interesting selection of letters that I had eventually discarded to be read when I was more in the mood to concentrate – a nervous yet excited epistle from Trixie, an overexcited letter from the States, a concerned few sides from Rebecca about David and an up and down letter from Harriet telling me it was just as well she and Martin had got married when they had done. I had then had a particularly trying morning with Lower II who had all been restless and not inclined towards work and concentration. I had been packed off to bed early that night with one of Matron’s potent doses to deal with a pounding headache where I was awoken shortly afterwards by a vicious shaking from Nancy on her return from the San.

Sorry, she muttered apologetically, perching on the edge of my bed. Peggy said you weren’t feeling too grand.
Just a headache, I mumbled in reply, shielding my eyes from the beam of her torch. Not quite appendicitis – I’ll be fine in the morning. How was Kathie?
Nancy shrugged. A little groggy – the anaesthetic was still wearing off. Jack says she’ll be fine though in a few days when the worst’s over and she starts feeling human again. I just can’t quite reconcile myself to the fact that she won’t be here for the rest of term.
Did you get hold of her aunt and uncle?
Yes, they’re flying out tomorrow than I imagine they’ll whisk her off to make a full recovery once Jack says she can leave the san. She paused. I want to be with her so much right now.
I know you do; and Kathie knows that as well.
I’d hope she does, replied Nancy wryly. If someone had had the foresight to tell me what this term would bring then I’d have gone and hidden in a cave for the duration or asked to be a tree or something!
I laughed. No you wouldn’t. Admit it Nance, the challenge has been good for you.
In all the wrong ways, I’m sure, she retorted.
I yawned. You’ve loved the power, I grinned.
Hmm, I tell you something though Sharlie, I won’t be sorry to hand the running of the school back to the Head at the end of term! There’s only so much power a girl can take… I’d best let you get back to sleep, I don’t want to be two staff down in the morning.
Nance?
Yes?
Are you okay?
I’m better for knowing that Kathie’s going to be okay, but I’ll be feeling odd until she gets back here. Like something’s missing, you know?
I nodded. I know.

I was able to visit Kathie a couple of days later to be reassured that she was well on the road to a full recovery in between bouts of feeling sorry for herself to be out of the action. The next excitement came in the form of a flying visit from the Head much to Nancy’s delight as she handed back the reins for a day or so. Half term was a much welcomed event and I headed to Geneva to stay with Anna and Guillaume where I was finally able to turn my attentions to the work I had from Professor Stewart to be getting on with.

2nd Post

18 November 1957

Dear Sharlie,

I hate to be the bringer of bad, well not exactly, news but I must be. Before I impart the news you must promise right now to not come haring back to Liverpool because there’s nothing you can do here and, besides, it sounds as though you have your hands full at school. Well, I suppose I’d better tell you what’s happened. David got married at the weekend, well he had to actually. You met Louise, didn’t you? They’ve been dating on and off since sometime between Christmas and Easter. The baby’s due in April – at least that’s after Harriet’s. Anyway the whole affair couldn’t have come at a worse time with David off on National Service at the end of the month. I forgot to tell you that they’d finally caught up with him; it’s about time as he’s been shirking it since he turned 18 in March, God alone only knows how. Neither of them is particularly thrilled by the turn things have taken, especially Louise and I can’t say I blame her. They’re at Aunt Jane’s now since David’s landlady refused to let Louise stay as well and her family have practically disowned her. Her father was livid to put it mildly and I can’t say I blame him either.

I can’t help but feel responsible for this whole sorry mess – David was my responsibility for a number of years after all. However, if I’m truly honest I’d seen this coming since he left school and started getting a bit of a reputation with the girls. I’m really not sure what will be the best plan for them both. I mean David going off on National Service is hardly an idea start to marriage – he’ll be gone twelve months at least (although I know he gets a little leave after eight). It’s Louise I feel sorry for though – she’s ever such a nice and sweet girl but the whole affair has been a real shock to her. Aunt Jane’s at her wits end over what to do with her.

This is an awfully sorry picture I’m afraid. I can’t think of anything cheery I could tell you to make this letter a bit brighter. But please don’t worry Sharlie, I know you will but try not to, Eliz, Aunt Jane and I have got things in hand and you’d only be in the way. We’ll see you when you’re back for the holidays.

Love, Becca.

Everything okay Sharlie, asked a voice from above me. I looked up from over my letter to see Peggy. You look like you’ve lost your last franc.
I smiled wryly. Read that, I said, handing over Rebecca’s letter.
Goodness, she said with a frown, handing it back and sitting beside me.
Bit of a shock?
Sort of, well yes really. And I was having such a good day.
What was your other post?
Trix – she’s had a daughter, Catherine Laura – my new goddaughter. It’s funny how things can change so quickly, isn’t it?
Absolutely. Still, you must be thrilled for Trixie.
Oh I am, she did so want a girl this time I sighed. I know Becca says everything’s in hand but I feel so useless. Honestly Peg, I could shake David and Louise for being so stupid!
And what good would that do, she asked dryly.
None, but I’d feel a damn sigh better for it! They’re neither of them complete idiots.
Don’t I know it, I muttered darkly.
What was that?
Oh… nothing. I can’t help but wonder how different things would have been if Aunt Carol and Uncle Charlie were still here. I mean, David’s always been surrounded by us girls without a male influence around. Well, I suppose Philip has been… but all the same. I can never quite get over how different David and Carrie are.
Peggy frowned. What was Louise doing before the wedding?
She used to work at the factory Becca did before she got married. Everyone in her family was disappointed that she left school to do that; seemingly she was quite clever and could have done a lot more. But clearly she didn’t want to.
Some don’t.
I know. I mean look at Becca. She only ever wanted to get married, have a family and look after the rest of us.
Didn’t you worry when she got married?
I… well… yes… Harri and I did, Harri more so. We weren’t sure she was marrying Philip for the right reasons. It was harder for Harri and I to understand – we were still at school then. Goodness… I paused. It’s been nine years since Becca got married. Isn’t it amazing how time flies?
And how little time it takes to realise you were wrong?
I returned Peggy’s grin. I hope I’m wrong to be apprehensive about David and Louise.
Only time will tell.
Oh time… I broke off as Peggy started laughing at me. I’m sorry to have dumped all this on you.
That’s what friends are for.
And aren’t I glad I can choose my friends at this exact moment in time?
You’ll get used to it.
Oh I know I will… I just can’t help worrying. They’re only kids.
With enough experience of life to know what they were doing, Peggy put in firmly. I know it’s hard but forget about it for today – write to Trixie or come with me and see if Mdlle’s got any coffee on the go!

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#641: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2005 12:41 am

Poor Sharlie -she miust feel so helpless. Lovely that Peggy was there.

#642: Author: Vikki, Location: Sitting on an iceberg, freezing to death!!!

Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2005 11:56 am

*hugs Sharlie*
(and also David and Louise)

*giggles at Pim and Ally!*

#643: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2005 2:02 pm

Thanks, Pim. I hope everything works out well for David and Louise and it was lovely to hear that Trixie had a girl, Laura.

#644: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2005 10:01 pm

Pimmy obviously cannot be trusted with her own drabble for she missed a whole post out. Luckily I noticed and have added it before the last post. Could I please redirect avaid fans back in that direction to read it in its proper context, thank you. Rolling Eyes

at pim

The rest of the term was a mixed affair and more than a little strange in the absence of Kathie. A new middle, one Jocelyn Marvell, managed to cause chaos and mayhem throughout the school culminating in her running away – an episode which, fortunately, ended well. One of the school’s Old Girls, Stacie Benson, stepped in to take Kathie’s place in maths and soon made a lasting impression on those who decided to try and test her. Peggy and I had cheerfully betted Kathie when we’d visited her in the San that she wouldn’t last as the recovering invalid until the following term. We were right and we were more than glad to welcome her back towards the end of term. She confessed in private that the driving, albeit private, reason had been that she hated the enforced separation from Nancy. We were all glad though when the end of term rolled around and to none more so than Nancy who was only too pleased to be handing the reins back to Miss Annersley. All the same she had proved that she was capable of taking on the responsibility with an enviable ease. For my part, I had quite enjoyed my first term as Head of the Junior School and was looking forward to the next one,

I headed back to Liverpool via London where I called in on Trixie to see my new goddaughter.

What do you think then, she asked as I settled on to her settee with Catherine in my arms.
I think she’ll end up looking like you but with Paul’s nose. How was the christening?
Fine – much smoother than Christopher’s! She was ever so good, didn’t cry once. It was a shame we couldn’t have you there though.
I laughed. You should have timed it better.
She raised an eyebrow. Hmm. Look, Sharlie, what was the meaning of that awful screed you sent me a few weeks ago – I couldn’t make head nor tail of it, something to do with your cousin.
Oh goodness, I exclaimed. I didn’t mean to lump all that on you, only I got the news the same day as your letter arrived. My head was in an awful muddle.
What happened?
He had to get married.
Oh.
Exactly.
Are you…
What?
It must have brought a few memories back for you.
Oh, that.
Well?
No, it’s fine, honestly. It shook me a little at first but I’m fine now. It’ll be a funny Christmas though.
I can imagine. What are your holiday plans anyway? You are coming back after New Year, aren’t you?
I nodded. Christmas in Liverpool then Cambridge for New Year and back to London to do some work.
I don’t envy you. At one time I thought I would but I’m happy as I am.
It’s funny, I always knew this was the way your life would work out but I couldn’t quite imagine it until it happened and now I wonder why I couldn’t.
She laughed. You’re not the only one to think that. Oh, Will’s getting married at Easter – I meant to write and tell you, but I forgot.
Really? I thought he was all out for being a bachelor.
He was until he met Kirstin – she’s Swedish and it’s a long and complicated story. Anyway the upshot is they’re getting married.
Golly. I got no further as the door was opened and Christopher burst in.
Auntie Sharlie, he exclaimed breathlessly as he climbed up beside me.
Hello Christopher.
He peered suspiciously at Catherine who was lying contentedly in my arms and then reach out and poked her nose. Don’t bother with her Auntie Sharlie, she smells.
I caught Trixie’s eye and choked back a giggle. That’s not a very nice thing to say.
She’s not very nice, retorted Christopher. She cries all the time. Mummy, when are we taking her back to the shop?

Children, exclaimed Trixie when Christopher had gone. Don’t ever have any, no, wait, do. They provide hours of entertainment – although there are times I could shake Christopher!
Let him get used to Catherine, I grinned. He’s said or done nothing worse than Jack or Sarah did.
Is Rebecca leaving it at three?
I doubt it. She might have contemplated it but now Eliz and Harri are swelling the motherhood ranks she and Philip are thinking about adding to the family.
You’ll have some catching up to do then.
I frowned. We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.

#645: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2005 10:10 pm

Thanks for the post - and the pre-post - good to read that too!

#646: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Tue Sep 06, 2005 8:02 pm

I was a little apprehensive about returning to Liverpool but by the time I arrived the blows had been softened and Louise was an accepted part of the family. She and Caroline had become firm friends even if Caroline privately begrudged giving up her room for Louise.

I always wanted a sister, Caroline confided in me on Christmas Eve as we were decorating Elizabeth’s house. Louise is the next best thing even is I do think she’s an absolute ass for marrying my brother.
I had to laugh at the sibling rivalry between David and Caroline. What do you think about being an aunt?
Goodness, I’m not nearly old enough – and neither are they. I don’t want anything like that for years and years to come. If you ask me… she trailed off.
What?
Nothing, she mumbled, busying herself in untangling an intriguing pile of decorations. I frowned and said nothing, turning my attentions to the pile of Christmas cards. Oh Sharlie it’s all going to be a horrible mistake – don’t you think?
I’d like to think no.
But David doesn’t really love Louise, and I doubt she’ll be so enraptured for much longer.
How do you know that?
David told me, before the wedding when Louise first told him about that baby. He told me it had all been a mistake… if Louise’s father hadn’t found out…
Then what?
It could all have been sorted out… Don’t look at me like that, Sharlie. I’m not a naïve little child anymore, I am 17 after all.
Not for another few days, I reminded her.
It’s near enough to make any difference. I’m old enough to know the facts of life though. It’s happened to girls I was at college with – one went away to have to baby, I suppose it was adopted. Louise could have done that you know if her father hadn’t found out.
What if she didn’t want to give up the baby?
She’s only going to make herself unhappy by keeping and being married to my brother.
You don’t know that. They might grow to love each other.
You should take your rose tinted spectacles off once in a while.
You should stop seeing everything in black and white, I retorted. There are shades of grey, Carrie.
What do you mean?
Well what would you have done in Louise’s situation?
I… I… she faltered.
See, things aren’t always so clear cut.
No. Although… I know exactly what I would have done.
Oh?
I wouldn’t have kept it, not even had it. Don’t look like that Sharlie, everyone knows you don’t have to have a baby if you don’t want it.
I didn’t at your age.
But it was different for you. You were at school; that must have sheltered you from some of life’s uglier truths.
Maybe you’re right.

I couldn’t get the conversation I’d had with Caroline out of my head. I knew she was right to some extent, that I had been sheltered from a lot of things at school. University had been a real eye opening experience for me; I’d seen, heard and experienced things I could scarcely believe to be true during my time in London. I found myself wondering about the girls I had taught and those I would teach and wondered how they would fare when they left school with its protective safety net over the harsh reality of the outside world. She was right as well that I viewed the world through rose tinted glasses only too often. Even after everything the 27 years of my life had thrown at me I still refused to believe that things could be as bleak as they often were. I believed in a better tomorrow, I always would. I had come through so much that I could only cling to the hope that one day I would wake up and everything would be alright.

My conversation with Caroline had started me worrying about David and Louise again. On the surface Louise seemed happy enough with the way things had worked out for her but at times I wasn’t sure whether I had noticed a flicker of doubt cross her face or whether I was only imagining things. I kept my concerns to myself, determined only to affect my Christmas with them. It was a noisy affair thanks to Sarah, Jack, Claire and Peter who kept us all entertained throughout proceedings. In a way it seemed only natural to think that there would be two more babies added to the family the following Christmas. In fact, I couldn’t imagine a Christmas without children.

Colin and Rupert had joined us for Christmas once more and in a snatched moment Colin and I were able to exchange our gifts. He had bought me a new watch after I had complained that mine had developed a mind of its own. However, it was the enclosed note which would last a great deal longer than the watch.

Dear Sharlie,

Because the most precious gift you can give is time.

Colin

#647: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Tue Sep 06, 2005 9:40 pm

What a difficult conversation Sharlie must have found that - in a way it might have helped Caroline had she known a little of Sharlie's own history.

Lovely gift and note from Colin.

Thanks Pim.

#648: Author: francesn, Location: away with the faeries

Posted: Tue Sep 06, 2005 10:18 pm

it's so sad that Caroline is being so negative/realistic (even I'm not entirely sure which) about David and Louise. And poor Sharlie having to have that kind of conversation, it must have raised all kinds of memories.

but she has Colin, and his thoughful present and oh-so-lovely note. *no fair, I want a Colin*

#649: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Tue Sep 06, 2005 10:36 pm

Thanks, Pim. Colin's note to Sharlie was lovely.

#650: Author: Vikki, Location: Sitting on an iceberg, freezing to death!!!

Posted: Wed Sep 07, 2005 9:26 pm

Thank you Pimmy and the Minions!!! Wink

#651: Author: Cazx, Location: Swansea/Bristol

Posted: Sun Sep 11, 2005 12:50 pm

Wonderful as always.

#652: Author: pim, Location: Helmel Hampster

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 2:27 pm

Louise lost the baby on Boxing Day. Harriet and Martin dealt with everything whilst the rest of us waited nervously and tried to keep the children occupied, albeit half heartedly. Harriet shrugged it off as ‘one of those things that sometimes happens’. Elizabeth cast me an anxious glance but I didn’t respond, not really trusting myself to speak. I wanted to run away and hide somewhere to cry but I was brought crashing back to reality by Harriet telling me that Louise was asking for me. Elizabeth squeezed my hand with a look that asked if I was okay; I could only nod dumbly in reply. I climbed the stairs apprehensively unsure what I could say to Louise.

[iLouise?[/I] I had knocked gently on the door to no response and had taken the initiative to go in anyway. Louise? Harriet said you were asking for me. Staring at her still form curled up facing away from me I felt twenty years old again and once more with no idea what to do. I’m just going to stay here, I said pulling up a chair beside the bed. So I’m here when you need me. Realising, and knowing, that I would get nothing soon I settled down with a copy of Oliver Twist that had been carelessly abandoned on the bedside table. It was a book I had read at least a dozen times and consequently it didn’t matter that I wasn’t giving it my full attention.

Sharlie, came the eventual whisper.
I abandoned Oliver to his fate and leant forward as Louise rolled over to face me. Still here, I whispered, reaching for her hand. Don’t talk if you don’t want to.
She stared at me. What’s there to say? I expect you think I’m a right idiot now.
Whatever for?
I’ve made a right mess of things, haven’t I? What’s the point now?
I frowned. What do you mean?
Won’t you just tell me I’ve made a mess of things and get it over with?
Is that what you want to hear?
It’s what everyone thinks.
What makes you say that?
I know. That’s why my parents won’t speak to me now. They hate what I’ve done. I never meant for it to happen; it was just a stupid mistake. She thumped the pillow in frustration. It wasn’t meant to be this way.
What was meant to happen then?
Oh I don’t know. But I was never meant to be married at 18 to someone I didn’t love and who doesn’t love me…
But…
There’s no point arguing it,
I…
What?
Nothing.
No, there’s something you’re hiding.
I… I… I stammered, thinking back to the conversation I’d had with Caroline.
What’s Carrie said?
She… sorry?
It’s her fault David and I are in this mess… I stared. She didn’t mean to but you know she has a habit of saying things without thinking. David told her about the baby and she let it slip to someone else and eventually it got back to my parents. I don’t hate Carrie for it – she’s been wonderful ever since. But it doesn’t matter – but I wasn’t going to keep it.
Oh?
We were nearly sorted then my parents found out. Dad went ballistic…
…and you ended up having to get married, I finished.
Exactly. We both protested but to no avail. Now I’ve got the rest of my life to repent for a moment’s stupidity.
Forgive me if I sound naïve, but could you not learn to love David?
She shrugged. Maybe. But most likely we’ll end up hating each other with a handful of kids we don’t want… but I don’t want that to happen.
Then it doesn’t have to be that way.
You’re right, she said with determination in her eyes. I’ll show them it wasn’t all a stupid mistake. I’ll make them sorry they ever doubted me.
Louise, what about this baby?
What about it? It’s gone, over, doesn’t matter now.
But… I stopped myself, choking back the lump in my throat.
It happens all the time to people, right, she asked with a beseeching look at me.
Yes it does, I mumbled in reply, avoiding her gaze.
Sharlie… you understand, don’t you? It… it’s happened to you.
I nodded. Yes, it did.
When?
I swiftly outlined the events of my first year at university. It’ll be easier for you though. You and David’ll soon have others.
You will one day. You’ve got Colin.
I shrugged. If we don’t then I’ll always think of Alice. I’ll always think of her anyway.
I suppose… Do you think it’s a punishment?
I shook my head. It’s just the way it goes. It even happens to old staid married couples.
She chuckled. I knew you’d understand in a way the others wouldn’t. Would… would you be the one to tell my parents?
I nodded. I’ll go tomorrow.
Tell them… my marriage will work even if we don’t love each other now. I’ll write to David and tell him not to worry. I’d rather get over this on my own. You did it.
I had no choice. Look, Louise, don’t mention Alice to my sisters, or anyone really. Eliz knows but I don’t want it going any further.
She nodded. I understand. Everyone’s going to know about me and I’d rather they didn’t.
But it doesn’t make you any less of a mother.

She smiled weakly as I moved on to the edge of her bed and we sat in a comforting embrace remembering our lost children.

#653: Author: Squirrel, Location: St-Andrews or Dunfermline

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 2:43 pm

Oh poor Louise. I'm glad that she and Sharlie can share this common bond. And that Sharlie was ready and able to help her through this. Thanks

#654: Author: Nell, Location: London, England

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 3:09 pm

Lots of lovely posts thank you all! *g* at Pim and Ally!

#655: Author: Vikki, Location: Sitting on an iceberg, freezing to death!!!

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 4:18 pm

*hugs Louise and Sharlie tight*

#656: Author: Chair, Location: Rochester, Kent, England

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 4:26 pm

*Sends Louise and Sharlie loads and loads of hugs*

Thanks, Pim. That was really brave of Sharlie, after everything she's been through to comfort Louise.

#657: Author: LizB, Location: Oxon, England

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 4:33 pm

Thanks Pim

Liz

#658: Author: francesn, Location: away with the faeries

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 10:41 pm

Thank you Pim

Did Louise know about Alice or was it a guess? Or did she just feel that Sharlie was someone she could talk to?

#659: Author: Josie, Location: London

Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2005 10:56 pm

Thanks pim.

#660: Author: Ann, Location: Newcastle upon Tyne, England

Posted: Tue Sep 13, 2005 8:09 am

Poor Louise, I didn't see that coming.

And well done to Sharlie for opening up to Louise and doing her best to help when it was so difficult for her.

#661: Author: Lesley, Location: Allhallows, Kent

Posted: Wed Sep 14, 2005 7:40 pm

Thanks Pim, think Louise is very brave, glad Sharlie could help her.

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