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“Nell got to you?” Hilda gazed at her out of those haunted eyes, and then nodded and closed her eyes as she spoke. “One of those times when she won’t let go. |
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Matey felt her throat tighten at the desolation in Hilda’s voice and wished, not for the first time, that she had a magic wand. |
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she felt as though God was breaking her wide open and remoulding her, as she became ever more open and dependent. She was not at all sure she liked letting down her walls, but if that was what God wanted from her.... |
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Nothing can fill the gap when we are away from those we love, and it would be wrong to try and find anything. ..... It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap; He does not fill it, but keeps it empty so that our communion with another may be kept alive, even at the cost of pain.” |
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While losing none of her great strength and determination, or indeed her stubbornness, her gentle nature was becoming ever more tender and compassionate, and she gave to others with a new tranquillity. |
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Mother Abbess reassured her. “Hilda, one life can influence an entire community, just as one flower can fill a room with sweet perfume. Through your sorrow, your brokenness, by accepting it, living with it, trusting God in it, and above all, by opening yourself up because of it, you are becoming such nourishment for other people. |
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It was a quiet radiance that cast its mantle over you and gentled you – and Kathie had left all her grievances behind her, and let Hilda’s coaxing draw out of her all her problems and all her little successes in this first term of her senior position. |
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Kathie had not wished, and Hilda had suddenly realised this the day after Nell’s anniversary. She had decided then that it was about time she discussed with Kathie how she actually felt about her new post. |
Helen P wrote: |
I love both the proverbs - I might copy the first one out and stick it on the wall! |
calico wrote: |
Hope Kathie isn't too horrible to Hilda. |
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That's certainly coming back with a bang! Thanks Mary. |
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Nancy was not to know it, but some of Hilda’s gentleness and mercy would have worked far better, as Mother Abbess had advised her weeks before. |
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Kathie hated herself for what she had done, having never behaved in such a fashion before, nor even felt like this before. But so confused and miserable was she that she also hated Hilda – and, in her unhappiness and possessiveness, somehow blamed Hilda for everything that had happened. |
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Finally, Nancy controlled herself enough to speak. “How dare you?” she whispered. “After all Hilda has done for us, given to us, how dare you insult her like that? Nell would have killed you for that, because she loved Hilda so much. You are not fit to be Nell’s successor.” |
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Slowly, oh so slowly, it came to her that she was to wait, very patiently, before making any decisions. She felt she was being told to act compassionately and generously towards Kathie, but at the same time being very firm and very fair – that in the end, all would be well. |
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As she let herself in, the red sanctuary lamp, a reminder of the presence of the Blessed Sacrament, flickered in the cold air coming in with her and seemed to be welcoming her. She sat down near the back and closed her eyes, letting the incense-fragrant silence calm her. |
MaryR wrote: |
““But Nancy, she knows you love her, just as she knows I have every confidence in her......” Nancy shook her head and bravely looked up. “She may doubt my love just at the moment. I threw her out of my office.” She saw Hilda’s eyes widen slightly in shock. |
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“You didn’t see behind the scenes, Nancy. I found it very hard, especially before you came, when Élise was first taken ill. But you’re right – I coped, because I had no choice. And I had the best of help. I had Nell.” |
Lesley wrote: |
Thanks Mary - look after Hilda won't you? |
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Hilda picked up the glass, raised it in salute to Matey and then drank half of it in one go, almost causing Matey to drop her own glass in shock. “Boy, you are in a bad way! Go easy, love.” “Why?” asked Hilda, almost grumpily. “Everyone else seems to be acting totally out of character. Maybe it’s time for me to join them.” Matey wisely kept her mouth shut and merely refilled the glass. Hilda downed that as well, |
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The voice she then heard was the rich contralto of her dreams. “Hilda, dear heart, I am still near you, not just in this chapel but wherever you are, wherever you go. I’m still listening to you, still cherishing you, still wishing you could once more feel my arms round you when you are sad or lonely, as you are tonight.” |
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You don’t tell your Headmistress that you are jealous of her and hate her because she is taking all your lover’s attention! Not if you want to keep your job anyway, reflected Kathie. |
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And then Hilda took away all her remaining props, and yet still in that oh, so gentle voice. “Kathie, dear, are you sure you are ready to be Headmistress? Have I made a mistake and put too much pressure on you, forced you to go where perhaps you are not able to go just yet?” |
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She almost felt like screaming at Kathie |
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Kathie began to feel like an insect impaled on a pin, laid totally bare, nowhere to hide. |